Monday, 16 April 2012

Deja Vu

(I am going to preface this with an apology on the lack of accent on the deja in deja vu. . . my keyboard only seems to want to make accents when I'm trying to write English words -_-u)

Deja vu :  is the experience of feeling sure that one has already witnessed or experienced a current situation, even though the exact circumstances of the prior encounter are uncertain and were perhaps imagined

I get deja vu  a lot. I'll go through entire weeks when I'll have near constant vivid and exact memories of individual events having happened before. If it happens during a conversation, I sometimes know what will be said next before it is said. Most frequently, this occurs when it is absolutely impossible for me to have done this thing before--like if I am in an entirely new place. As an example, deja vu was with me almost the entire time when I visited London (for the first and only time) in 2009. It is also rarely a straightforward single-layer sense of deja vu either. Rather, I will remember having a dream about something I did once in real life, giving the feeling this eerie triple layered effect. Sometimes, I am able to pick out the dreams as they happen, file them away, and say "this will give me deja vu someday, I just have to wait".

I'm not saying I'm psychic or anything, by any means. But the feeling is creepy as all hell, and often makes me doubt my own reality. It also makes me feel trapped, like I'm caught in some sort of an endless cycle from which there is no escape.

Near perpetual deja vu is probably part of why movies like the Matrix blow my freakin' mind (well, the first time I watch them, anyway), or why the Dark Tower notion of ka appeals to me so much.

I mean, what if The Matrix had it right? 

Ok, ok, I'll back the crazy bus up.

But seriously, what causes this? No one seems to know. 
Recently, I've started taking a more positive view of it, and reading my deja vu moments as a sign that life is on track, and everything is going according to plan. Its almost gotten to the point where I feel a little lost in between my deja vu phases.

Its probably all part and parcel with thinking too much.
What do you think? 


  1. Déjà vu is freaky. It happens to me too, although not quite as regularly. I've also had the "remembered dream from real life" thing, which I find vaguely terrifying. There are a lot of explanations for déjà vu, namely that in life we have lot of experiences throughout the course of our lives that are similar and sometimes the brain gets confused and releases a chemical that gives that déjà vu feeling. I'm pretty sure that I heard that on the X-files but Agent Scully is so authoritative. That would make the London thing hard to explain though....
    I think that it's super interesting and I'm glad that I'm not the only one who thinks of these things.

    This is Andréa btw

  2. I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks about these things too, hahah. And hell, I'll take Scully's explanation if no one else is offering any.